I’m going to come out and say it: I’ve been stuck.
This past couple of weeks is pure proof of that. We travelled to Tanzania last month and when we got back, I was extremely homesick. Ironic right? I just came from home but that made me even more homesick. Kai flourished in Dar (es Salaam). He absolutely loved it there. Before we left, he’d taken his first steps and was tottering around 4 steps at a time. By the time we came back, he was full blown following me from the living room to kitchen and back. He became more social and was excited every morning because every day, a new adventure awaited him. I wish we could’ve been there for longer. I love our life here but I miss my side of the family so much. And seeing Kai with his Bibi and Babu (grandparents in Swahili), playing with his cousins and being spoilt by his uncle and aunt made me miss them even more. Everyone says I should just go there more often. I wish it was that simple.
So it’s taken me awhile to get back into things. I hit the ground running when I returned to work pretty much the day after we returned and haven’t stopped since. I’ve then been so occupied with planning Kai’s birthday party. My head’s been clogged up and my bestie even said it makes sense that I would have a writer’s block situation going on. I have so many things that I want to talk about, share and explore with you and it’s been all in my head. Bubbling up. But to sit and do it, just hasn’t happened. And it doesn’t help that I’ve returned to social media. I took a break from it during my trip. I have a strict policy that when I’m on leave or out of the country, my phone is only for calls. I was so disciplined with this during my maternity leave and it felt incredibly freeing. Social media has a tendency to make you compare yourself and your life to others, most of whom you don’t even know in real life. Weird right? I guess it’s normal to compare yourself, it’s human nature, but I believe social media has taken it to a different level and would often make you feel like you’re not doing enough, not pretty enough, not successful enough and I need a break from that from time to time. So I unplugged and I loved it. I’ve been slowly making my way back to my life and well, it’s been tougher than I thought it would be.
I don’t usually do this but I wanted to give you a quick preview of some of the things that I’ve been itching to share with you:
- Kai turned one last week. I’ve been a mom for a year now. OMG. So, I’d like to share how that’s going.
- I survived travelling with a baby. Remember how terrified I was? Well, I did it and it was…you’ll see…
- As always, I’ve been protective styling my hair this winter and I’m missing my hair. But my wigs have been saviours.
- I planned Kai’s birthday party (all by myself) and it was one of my favourite things to do. The DIY stuff I did for it awakened my inner child and I’m keen to do more.
- After my December big chop, I cut my hair again. Yes, I did. And it was at a fab new salon that knows natural hair!
So, keep tuned. And watch this space, as they say 😉
Just recently found your blog through a rabbit hole of clicking on links and blogs that are no longer in existence! I am so glad I did. I am an African-American living in your neighboring country of Namibia, serving as a Peace Corps Volunteer. I wear my hair natural and shocked daily by the acceptance and sometimes non-acceptance of natural hair. Thank you for sharing your blog with us!
Firstly, I love this post & can really relate about having so much to say (or wanting to write), but it just doesn’t happen.
Then, thanx for teaching me about ‘Bibi and Babu’ – such beautiful loving words.
Keep up your gorgeous blog. x Yolandi
Ugh, writers block is the worst. recently took a long hard look at my blog and I just wasn’t feeling the content anymore man. got me one of those blogger diaries that i kept with me all the time and the ideas seemed to flow. Hopefully i don’t dry out again.
I’m most definitely staying tuned. Thanks for sharing.
Mvumikazi | Urban Mnguni
Hi there, I had my first baby 2 weeks ago via emergency c-section. I was induced at 37 weeks due to low amniotic fluid, low birth weight and lessened fetal movement and went into active labour for 9 hours. My baby’s heart rate dropped and he went into distress, the doctors then decided to do an emergency c-section.
He is a healthy perfect beautiful baby boy, he weighed 2.3kg. He is just AMAZING and I love him to bits.
His skin however is very dry, and it peels away as well. Not sure why, but I’ve been using Johnson’s & Johnson’s baby soap and it’s been helping keep his skin moisturized.
I hope to win this hamper for my baby.
Welcome back :). Will be definitely watching the space, as always!
I can so relate to this…the balancing act of adulting and exploring your creative side. Thanks for sharing and keeping it real 🙂